Helllllooooooooooooooooohhh!

Just so you know, I am still here. I have just been extremely busy. I am also very sad and my heart goes out to a family who lost a baby last week. The service is today and if you want you can have a loot at the site for little Kendra. Just a word of advice, keep a box of tissues nearby. I work with the brother-in-law of Kendra's parents and he has gone to Cape Town for the memorial service.

We often forget to sit back and take a good look around and say thank you. I went home on Monday after P told me about the little girl and held my two babies sooooo tight in my arms. I sobbed my heart out and they just lay with their heads on my shoulders not understanding what got into Mommy.

I wasn't sure if I should publish this, but after seeing how many people have left comments on Kendra's site and how much her mom appreciates it, I thought I should share it with my blog friends. She asked people to wear happy colours to the ceremony and you know what, I dressed myself in happy colors today because in my heart I am celebrating her little life with them. Just over 12 years ago, I also lost a little life. I never got the chance to see what he/she would have looked like.

In absentia...

It feels as if the world has passed me by this last week. I have no idea what my blog buddies have been up to. I have no idea what the latest Chucky jokes are and by the way, what is that all about? I feel as if I have lost the plot somewhere. I have been so busy at work and work and home. I don’t think this thing with holding down 2 jobs is working for me. Tuesday was a public holiday and I didn’t even have the time to sit back and relax for a couple of hours. As I mentioned before, I have 2 jobs now and the second job is not paying as well as the first, but boy is this man keeping me busy. Out of the goodness of my heart and because I am always stupidly not wanting to hurt another’s feelings, I went ahead and told him I would help him. I even dropped my rate I normally charge. Now, just before some of you get the wrong idea, this “work” does not involve sex. I’m a pretty darn good accountant if I might say so myself. I have the ability to sort out other people’s messes and implement systems that work. I spent all of 2 days just trying to explain to him what his filing system should look like. He is not the sharpest knife in the drawer. The staggering thing is that he is making an extreme amount of money and after finalizing his year end accounts, I have realized that he can afford to pay me more than I even asked. The problem is that I rush to work in the morning and finish at 13h00 and rush to his offices and rush home to get home in time for the nanny to leave. Then I have to make supper, bath the little ones, spend time with them and before I know it, I’m asleep on the couch in front of the television.

I have been to the gym all of 6 times this last month. It just isn’t worth it. I have been working out so well. I had my routine sorted and now it is all messed up. I have convinced the owners at the gym to open at 7 in the morning. I managed to get there 4 times this past 2 weeks. Either I will have to start taking drugs to get me awake and keep me awake to do all that is needed or I will have to quit something.

The good news is that I bought myself a little car and I am so happy with it. She drives like a dream and even though she is a 2000 model, she purrs like a kitten. I had an alarm and central locking installed yesterday. It is a Fiat Palio Weekend. She is officially the fourth car I have owned in my life. It is a wonderful feeling to be so mobile again.

I will be catching up on all your news over the weekend and hopefully next week won’t be so hectic and I can keep up to date again.

I'm 1 today!!!

Guess who turns 1 today?

The prettiest little girl in the world is 1 today. You have brought so much love and happiness to our lives. I will endeavor to keep you happy and safe for always. I can't believe that I have had the priviledge of spending a whole year with you already. It still feels like yesterday when you were bouncing and kicking in my tummy. You are the sweetest, cutest, friendliest, happiest and most loving little girl ever.

Happy birthday my sweet!!!

Sporting weekend

Look, if I was a guy, I would have been in absolute guy heaven this weekend. Friday, it was rugby and cricket. Saturday, rugby and the F1 qualifying. Sunday we watched F1 and the most amazing cricket match in history of cricket.

I love to watch sport. I am more of a rugby fan than Mr B. He often asks me to
identify players on the field. I am also a Blue Bulls fan and as luck would have it,
the only one in the house. Our provincial rugby team must still be born, because the guys playing currently can't do it. So, please forgive us for supporting other provinces. What happened this weekend. All the South African teams lost except for the Bulls. What a wonderful game they had! 23-16 win against the Hurricanes. Pedrie Wannenburg scored 2 tries to secure the win.
*photo courtesy of www.sarugby.co.za


As for the cricket, the game on Friday night in Durban, was a humdinger.
Close finish and if Smith didn't bowl and gave away 22 runs in one over, we would have clinched that game and the series. But no, he had to go and try be a hero. We narrowly lost that game and that leveled the series at 2 all. We then had to wait until Sunday in Johannesburg. We watched the start of the game. Ponting played a brilliant innings for Australia. He scored 164 of something like 106 balls(I stand corrected on the number of balls). They scored 434 and we had to come in and score 435 to win. We switched over and watched the F1. Mr B is an absolute F1 fan. Sakkie was watching cricket and F1 in his room. Switching between the two. Eventually we didn't know what to watch because it was so exciting. He came in while we were watching F1 and said that Dippenaar had gone out for 1. What a bummer! Mr B decided to stick to the F1. He knew his guy would win. I'm a Ferrari fan. Always have been and always will be. Sakkie came in about 30 minutes later saying that we better put the cricket back on because something is happening. Fortunately the Grand Prix was just about finished. Just as it finished, we crossed back over to the cricket. Smith & Gibbs were doing magic. So many sixes and fours!! To chase such a total seemed impossible at the start. However, the boys were doing it. Smith went out for 96. If he hit one more 4, he would have set a record for the fastest 100 ever scored. Gibbs continued his magic and after being dropped by Bracken(Thank you) scored 175 runs. Don't forget about Bouchers brilliant stand of 50 which included the winning runs. Before I get too long winded about this, I just want to say, that if you missed this game, you missed something special. I saw grown men crying in the stands. I saw grown men crying in my lounge. With 4 balls left, we had Andrew Hall facing Brett Lee. Hall connected the ball and it went straight to a fielder. OUT! With 3 balls left, Ntini was facing Brett Lee. We thought it was all over. He connected the ball. He ran a single which tied the game and which left Boucher facing Lee. We needed one more to win. Boucher connected the ball and we all held our breaths. It went for 4 runs. Jubilation!!!!

Proteas, we are proud of you. You can do it!!!
*photo courtesy of www.cricket.co.za

Let's talk about sex....

"Let's Talk About Sex"

(Punch it, HurbYo,
I don't think we should talk about this
Come on, why not?People might misunderstand what
we're tryin' to say, you know?No, but that's a part of life)
Come on

[CHORUS]

Let's talk about sex, baby
Let's talk about you and me
Let's talk about all the good things
And the bad things that may be
Let's talk about sex…..


The above extract from the Salt'n'Pepper song keeps milling through my head today. Ask me why. No, please don’t ask me why. I have no idea. Maybe I heard the song playing somewhere in the background recently. I can’t for the life of me think why this would be. How often haven’t I realized that I have been singing a song all day and then can’t think why or don’t even know when it started. Because this is a family blog, you won’t often find me talking about sex. I am not saying that I am not doing it (having sex that is), but that is not the issue today. I did some googling when I realized that these lyrics kept milling through my mind. I came across this site and found the full lyrics there. It is the last part of the song that actually confirms something I have been thinking about for a long time.

“(Yo, Pep, I don't think they're gonna play this on the radio
And why not? Everybody has sexI mean,
everybody should be makin' love
Come on, how many guys you know make love?)

[CHORUS]”

Isn’t that the question we should be asking? I don’t just want to have sex. That is so easy. I want my lover to make love to me. I want him to take the time and forget about everything else and just make love to me. Isn’t that what all woman want?

Have you been paying attention?

This one is definitely for the people who regularly visit my blog. I added a little feature just to the right here(just below my profile in the sidebar) and I came across it while googling quizzes. I know it is not everyone's cup of tea, but I think they are a lot of fun. This is a particularly interesting site as you can literally create your own set of questions and answers. So go on!! Click on the link and let's see what happens.
You never know, it might open a whole new can of worms for you! Listen to Nike and "Just do it!"

If you don't want to take the quiz you can always go here to have a look at what else they offer.

Back to the future or not?

I feel like I am in a timewarp. If I open my blog, the last post I get to see, is the one for 27 Feb. I think the poor system is being overloaded by all us intellectuals poring our hearts and soles into our blogspaces every day. What to do when you can't do what you want to do? I have cleared my temporary files and even cleared the history, but still, no avail. I have blocked myself from myself and don't know how to undo it.

I think I should take a leave of absence and try again in a couple of hours.

Curves - Confession time

I had my THIRD weigh in and measurements done on 28 Feb. How does the following sound?

Bust – 0.00
Waist - -1.00 cm
Abdomen - -3.00 cm
Hips - -1.00 cm
Thighs - 0.00
Arms - -1.00 cm
Weight - -1.00 kg's
Body fat - +0.50%

These measurements are a comparison between 28 Jan and 28 Feb’s measurements.

My problem is that I am extremely disappointed in myself. I set myself a 3 month goal and I am not anywhere near that. My weight is still 2 kg’s from the 3 month target. We won’t even talk about the other measurements. Due to the disappointment, I have been binge eating. Not helping matters at all. My life is just a bit upside down now. I have work commitments that are messing with home commitments and I am battling to balance the two out. The only thing that is suffering is the time I have to get to the gym. I missed 3 of 5 days last week. I missed one day due to Voting day, but the others simply because I couldn’t fit it into my hectic week. It was financial year end and clients climbed out of the woodwork and needed assistance with getting their year ends done. Amazing how bookkeepers know about errors, but won’t fix it until it screws up a year end. Then all hell breaks loose and everything comes to a standstill.

Yes, it is easy to find excuses. I have let myself fall into the trap. This after I have been so good. I haven’t gained any weight after the disaster of last week, but I am going to have to work extra hard over the next couple of weeks to sort out the damage caused to my self esteem.

Confession time: I am a binger and it can be very devastating. It is a vicious cycle to break and the slightest thing can trigger it. Actually, I don’t even always need an excuse. Then I hate myself as I do now. I am seriously considering brain surgery. I am sure a transplant will be a permanent solution. Can you imagine if it were that easy? I might be onto something here. It would be good to remember that for my next life. I want to return as a brain surgeon who will solve obesity and all dietary problems. Weight will not be an issue any more.